hello whoever you are!

if your seeing this ur most likely cool :3

My name is jay and i love music, mostly emo, punk, metal, and indie type stuff.

i love to watch videos of people living and doing really cool stuff w/ friends, so i wanted to give back to the community by repeating the cycle of fun. but i'm like really stupid and i can't edit and idk how to get good shots. if you have any editing or filming tips tell me! i'll also gladly do anything that sounds super fun.

to be honest,

i love the rain and photography and skate stuff and when i see videos by people like meadow scott i just feel so happy inside and i also get like super jealous cuz she has friends who would go out at 3am to skate and just go out and have fun. i am just some gay idiot who doesn't care if he's barely surviving, as long he is living. i have no idea what to do when i turn 18, like i wanna move somewhere that's actually good but i know it's like impossible to find a good roomate who gets me. the world is a funny place, all you need is to be in the right place at the right time and you could have everything you've ever dreamed of, but you never know if you really want it or if you are in the right place or even near the right time.

i wanna dance in the rain, i wanna eat cheap food in a parking lot with friends, i want to go urbexing, i want to have good friends i can depend on, i wanna have a job that gives me the right ammount of break time, i want to make awesome videos that make people feel good inside, i wanna learn to play some instruments, i wanna make music that people love to use in awesome videos, i wanna learn to skate, i wanna go camping with people i like, i wanna dissapear with no trace but a FU letter, i wanna have a boyfriend, i want to feel the warmth of a boy i love, i wanna have stuff to look forwards to, i wanna take pictures people love, i want to make the coolest DIY outfit ever,

i just want to live.